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Home~* Bonjour *~Dec 28, 2004
Welcome To My Humble Lil World .

This site is delicated for me to pour out my emotions & thoughts. It's better to write than speaking to a friend?! Afraid they will be tired with the same thing over and over again.

I feel that blogging makes me feel better in a way or so. It's like pouring out my sorrows to a "person".

I'm a Simple, Plain, Hot Tempered & Emotional girl. Haha.. Yeah that's me!

To me Love is a constant commitment where there will be continuous expectations to be met. I believe Trust, Faithfulness, Understanding and Initiative are the main cores in a relationship. And getting into a relationship is easy but how to maintain a relationship is what we really have to learn.


My Wish List
- Australia trip
- A brand new me

Blog EntryMay 27, '11 9:20 AM
for everyone
I guess I don't know how to love someone

VideoMar 8, '11 7:46 PM
for everyone
Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close



I put up a brave front in front of everyone, that nothing had happened, that everything is perfectly normal.. Deep down I feel hurt, angered, unstable and helpless.

You.. The string that I should not have attached to right from the start.

Blog EntryFeb 13, '11 10:00 PM
for everyone

Disappointed and feeling hurtful. He doesn't even have the intension of asking me out until I asked.

I don't mind no flowers (though I really don't like people buying it coz I find it impractical), no gifts, no surprises... but at least ask me out.

5 years of r/s doesn't mean special occasions can be foregone.. it is still the little thought and effort that counts.


Blog EntryJan 10, '11 9:21 PM
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We woke up from our nap and was having fun in bed, then his phone rang and his friends said they were already near his place and asked him to open his gate. They initially said they were not coming over for dinner.

Just how turn off things were at that moment.. And I felt like strangling each of them! FYI, this kinda incident don't just happen once.. but twice! They just suddenly popped out

And what was worst, I was not entitle to be unhappy about it?! Like if you had gotten my hint about asking them to leave early, then I would not show you my black face the whole night. But either you did not get it or you just couldn't do so to your friends.

Major mood spoiler!


Blog EntryJan 5, '11 2:08 AM
for everyone

First of all A Happy New Year to Everyone!

I am very glad that I get to spend my Christmas and New Year with HIM!! It was the best gift and I thank God, HIM and myself for letting me having a wonderful time during Christmas and New Year! I want to say I am looking forward to more holidays and time being spend together... =)


Blog EntryNov 16, '10 1:14 PM
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I told myself not to envy, not to feel sad just because everyone I know are doing it.

Just hope some day, some day...

Blog EntryOct 26, '10 10:59 PM
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Gee I actually forgot to bring money out and what's worst I will be having dinner with my bud later. I was jokingly thanking him that the dinner will be his treat but now it has become the real sad truth for him *evil laughs*

I will pay him back luh, I'm not so evil!

Great.. my long compo does not help to let them see things clearly and to solve the matter, sigh! Really must settle things that way? I really pray hard for matters to get better.

Blog EntryOct 26, '10 5:06 AM
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I had this sec school friend who we used to be closed but all the while she had been backstabbing me and go around telling untrue rumours. I was devastated that she actually did all those stuff when all along I had been treating her as a very good friend. After graduating, I totally cut off contact with her.

2 of her best friends became my, because I guessed they saw her true colours. And if I was not wrong she thought I was the one who snatched them away from her.

Did she resent me for snatching her 1st best friend that she did all those stuff to me during sec school? I don't know.

Just recently she gotten married and the most amusing thing happened was she deleted the J (her 2nd best friend) and me off FB. Why? She wanted a new life free of gossips (after J and her talked it out) Of coz I retaliated back on FB regarding her deletion and our common friends told her. If her conscience is free, why would she scared if gossips. Not as if she's marrying out of wedlock. Oh well.. Who started it 1st anyway.

I know this incident kinda immature. I just wanted to vent it out since I had been keeping quiet all these while of her actions!

To me I felt that she does not deserve this kind of good husband and life. Because she live life with motives and making use of people who are of good help to her. She actually told J (when they were in good terms) that she took up that course just so she could find that kind of bf/husband (J told me this, though I don't know was this really true but sounded just like her).

Yes and I actually envied her for finding someone good and having married plans together!!!! Sheez! WTF is wrong with me! Just because my love life ain't smoothing out yet but this does not allows me to be negative and envy others. Oh god! Bth myself!

Aiya all the best to you but don't expect me to make the first move to patch things up with you, coz the stuff that you did to me, J's ones are peanuts, do that's why she can forgive you and put the past behind easily.

I shall stop envying.. Pfft

Blog EntryOct 26, '10 4:43 AM
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Having a tummy ache yesterday right after lunch and worsen after my dinner. Hurts so much that I didn't want to walk or move about. After he had fixed my new fan, kiss me goodbye and informing my Dad I had a tummy ache before he left, sweet! Mum gave me an oil tummy rub and slept from 9plus till morning, not enough.

It still hurts but not as much. Faster recover! I have a dinner date with buddy tomorrow!

Blog EntrySep 11, '10 3:46 PM
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Where do I belong? I feel so empty, lost, helpless. Is there a place where I am being welcome and feel safe without fearing?

Blog EntryJul 22, '10 8:53 PM
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The day when my world was left shattered, all hopes gone, I have nothing that I can call my own.

One by one, as they left me, I realised love is being compromised for one's selfishness. They never understand how I want to bring across to them, for I never understand myself, how would I expect them to know me. Never plan forever, never live like they will always be with you.

The lesser the love and dependence, the lesser the pain and emptiness.

I want to live on my own and raise my own kid by myself, your child. Like a love token given to me to always remember you, that we were once happy together. Something that I can call my own with some part of you around.


Sounds silly, I know, for this is how much I'm willing to go..

Blog EntryJun 26, '10 5:52 AM
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When I took a look at my bank acct, I got a shock. When I check my cc outstanding, I got a heart attack. And I still have to pay my cousin for the beauty products she got for me from Korea. All of my 1st pay will go to these unnecessities. Damm my spending habits and the use of future money. Gotta rid off these bad habits.

It's weekend and I'm feeling restless and lethargic. Work rip away leisure time and beauty sleep.

Blog EntryJun 14, '10 1:00 AM
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World Cup is draining me! Felt extremely sleepy, could even sleep while standing in a crowded train.

Will post a MV when I get back, a song wish has been constantly playing in my head. Anyway it's quite troublesome to post thro my mobile.

I had heard a suprised news, something which I had already sensed not right but was suprised of the outcome.

Sometimes I was thinking is it us girls really asking too much or the guys just refused to compromise. I thought when they got back together their issues and prospects are being worked out, but apparently R said doesnt want to waste her time. Got me thinking, so who's fault? Quite sad cox they're quite a suitable and I feel like I have lost a friend too.

Blog EntryJun 9, '10 11:30 PM
for everyone
我告诉你我会放弃手上的事去找你,可是你却认为我不会。我曾经肯为了你放弃生命,我已做到了这个境界,你能做得到吗?

Blog EntryJun 6, '10 9:31 PM
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Woke up with a heaty heart, strong sense of reliability coupled with a strong urge not to start work but staying home thro'out my holidays.

I just want to stay close to my family and bf, I dislike meeting acquaintances or putting up a fake smile.
Lastly I'm going back to an old workplace where I dislike the working environment, the perm staffs and the job itself. Couldnt find the job that I badly wanted so I have got no choice but to go back to this.

Upon stepping into the office, I totally regretted my choice! Life's trying to play a fool on me, what I badly wanted die die also cant get but what I dont want is always available.

Hope I have some night life, if not I'll be bored to death.
Right now I so looking forward to knocking off.

Blog EntryJun 6, '10 10:36 AM
for everyone
I'm deleting off those who are online friends or blogshop off my multiply list. This is my personal space, the lesser the better.

Blog EntryMay 31, '10 8:36 PM
for everyone

You got my blood boiling!!

Your level of maturity is zero! Just what are you trying to prove here. Act like a victim or to prove to them that you're a good catch. I am childish but your actions are worst than my. And btw, you're no difference from a backstabber, the way you do those stuff to me. Wake up your idea and don't think you're better than me in every aspect, BECAUSE I AM SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU!

Don't act like a saint when you're not even close to being one.. I have seen enough of these imbeciles in this society.

Your attitude towards family love and affection for your love one is zero, you're pathetic.


Blog EntryMay 13, '10 9:04 AM
for everyone

"All that a girl needs is a guy, just one guy who would be man enough to prove her that not all men are the same."

I'm a stealer.. Stole this from Darren, not only did I paste it here but also in FB.

Haha.

Says everything within me..


Blog EntryMar 19, '10 12:21 AM
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Recently I added a kindergarden + same primary school (after I transferred) + who's also my secondary school best friend's best girl pal (after my bestie transferred school) on Facebook. Yes what a link we both shared.

We were in the same kindergarden class and I remembered her as a shy and quiet girl. We weren't friends but somehow know of each others presence. I think I talked to her only once or twice.

After I had transferred to HGS, we met again. I could not remember if she actually remembered me but I remembered her and approached her telling her she was in the same kindergarden as me (I think that was how we started talking!). I used to go over her house or to the nearby playground together with another primary school friend of ours to play. I even bullied my maid who had to carry my baby Bro into being the catcher to start the ball rolling while playing at the playground! Lol. I know it was not right but I was still young ok. Even though the 3 of us were from different classes but taking the same school bus, we would always meet to play. Yes you have guessed it, we were staying very very closed to each other, same street but different blocks. Everyday, while waiting for our school bus to arrive, we would play five stones together with my classmate who was also taking the same school bus too, or buying lots of tibits to munch in the bus or picking saga seeds (my school compound had abundant of it!) Those days were fun, and I really missed it =(.

Somehow, meeting up became less frequent, and I started taking the public transport by myself during primary 5, so ended up losing contact during the midst of our primary school days. Quite sad, and being young we did not know the importance of staying in contact.

Moving on to secondary school, my best friend transferred out to a school near her place. I could not remember how I knew my kindergarden friend was also her friend. But because of awkwardness, the both of us still didn't stay in contact.

I knew she was in the same poly as me too, but in the Business building, and if I was not wrong, should be the same course as my sec sch bestie. When Friendster was the hot social network site, I added her.

After poly and started working, this was the period that Friendster craze started to die down. I neglected my page and soon forgotten about her presence. Until 2 weeks ago, I chanced upon her page in FB from my bestie's photo. Only till today while browsing through her photos, then I realised she recently got married! Was alittle surprised, because I least expected her to get married so early. She is the kinda girl who totally enjoys holidaying, the sun and she have that career woman aura. Seeing her cheery face in her wedding photos, I am really happy for her! And hope she has a blissful marriage too! =) The wedding was held at beginning of the year, and currently she is on her 1 month honeymoon trip with her hubby, enjoying the sun and the sea.

Seeing friends of my age getting married actually feels funny and bewildered. At this point of time, I ought to see more of it and will get more common soon, but I don't know why do I feel weird and surprised about it. Haha. At 24, everyone grows up, get more serious with life, girlfriends will start to get married first, then the guy friends and the next thing I will hear them saying they are having babies! =))

Sigh, why do we have to grow up so quickly. I feel so underachieved and a woman trapped in a girl's mindset, can time slow down alittle!

I really missed my childhood days.

Seeing her blissfully married, I am tempted to say.. when is my turn! Hahaha.

Oh well, unless miracle happens that allows me to find the right person to unlock that trapped door within me.